becoming
jean’s first album, becoming, explores identity and relationship through thoughtful and, many times, deeply vulnerable lyrics. Though there is a dark tenor to her music, light always pierces through to bring each song to a complex, yet hopeful resolution.
This album is a “rough draft” and will be refined and re-published in a professional format as time and energy permit.
© 2024 Jean Huth. All rights reserved
all i have
jean’s first “worshipful” album, all i have, shares hope and focuses on how good God is. Using Bible verses and allusions from fellow authors and poets, each song calls us to thoughtful meditation and authentic action.
This album is a “rough draft” and will be refined and re-published in a professional format as time and energy permit.
© 2024 Jean Huth. All rights reserved
becoming
artist: jean
year: 2024
© 2024 Jean Huth. All rights reserved
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Verse 1
I’ve been erecting fences, on the edges of my heart
To keep the roving wolves at bay, to keep out the dark
You keep on asking me to open up the gate
But I can still smell the whiskey and I know it’s just not safe.
Chorus
To have and to hold, I am still holding you
For better or worse, you are still my heart
You and I are one, until whiskey do us part.
Verse 2
I finally hung up all the pictures, took a chance at feeling whole
But you stumbled and you broke them, now these walls are bare like bones
And the blood is slowly draining from this creature we call love
I’m hanging on here trying to save us, but I am living here alone.
Chorus
To have and to hold, I am still holding you
For better or worse, you are still my heart
You and I are one, until whiskey do us part.
Bridge
You’ve got demons in your closet and they taunt you day by day
You know you’re going to have to face them before they steal your life away
And I can only see two endings, either you get well and you stay
Or I will keep erecting fences, but you’ll be the wolf that I keep away
Chorus
To have and to hold, I am still holding you
For better or worse, you are still my heart
You and I are one, until whiskey do us part.
Until whiskey do us part…
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Verse 1
I remember the good times, when we laughed until we cried
Your soul was so much lighter then, and you still had your smile.
Even though you’re so troubled, even though you’re so blue,
Take my hand, hold me close, I am right here with you.
Chorus
And I will wait for you, I will wait for you, I will wait for you
Baby, I will wait for you, I will wait for you, I will wait for you
Verse 2
Though the night grows darker, and the plenty grows thin,
And the better it grows worse, this is not the end,
It just means that we try harder, we learn to forgive
Yeah we swallow down our pride and we learn how to live
Bridge
It was not that long ago, I was the one on the ground
And you held my head up so I would not drown
Don’t think that I’ll forget it, all the kindness you showed
Yeah you’re down now, I get it, but I am here to share the load
Chorus
And I will wait for you, I will wait for you, I will wait for you
Baby, I will wait for you, I will wait for you, I will wait for you
I will wait for you, I will wait for you, I will wait for you
I will wait for you, I will wait for you, I will wait for you.
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Verse 1
Oblivion never felt so close
The demons breathing down our necks
Precipice beneath our feet
The abyss feels so real right now
Verse 2
But everyday we say we’re fine
We hide behind a thin veneer
Underneath we’re breaking down
About to crack and pour right out
Chorus
But you say
“I am here, don’t believe the lies,
That you’re alone, that you’re without light.
When things are dark, don’t let go
Lean in hard, hold my words close.”
Verse 3
Why do we put on a show
To make it look like we’re ok?
We’re so afraid to open up
We think we’ll die if we are known.
Chorus
But you say
“I am here, don’t believe the lies,
That you’re alone, that you’re without light.
When things are dark, don’t let go
Lean in hard, hold my words close.”
Bridge
I never said this would be easy
Narrow is the road you walk with me
But I said I’d never leave you
Just obey and believe
Chorus x 2
You say
“I am here, I’ve never left your side.
Things are dark, but I am your light.
Child, look to me, I’ll never let you go.
Just lean in hard, hold my words close.”
Verse 4
I know you want to close your eyes
And hope that this all goes away
But you were called for such a time
So stand firm in my grace
Chorus
“I am here, I’ve never left your side.
Things are dark, but I am your light.
Child, look to me, I’ll never let you go.
Just lean in hard, hold my words close...hold one another close for me.”
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Verse 1
I wind these pleasures round my soul
To make myself seem whole and perceptible
I drape this glory all around
In hopes that I’ll be found to be detectable.
Verse 2
I cover up the hurt and woe
With all the grandest shows I have available
They are just bandages I know
But you can see me as I go, I am discernable.
Verse 3
If I turn off all the noise,
Will I fade into the void becoming trivial?
If I stop the constant show,
Would anyone ever know I’m consequential?
Pre-chorus 1
You can see me when I hide
Behind the picture perfect smiles I am observable
I’m stacking up the loves and likes
They give me form and testify, I am substantial.
Chorus 1
But when I see you see me, I come undone
I become so fully real, I become so fully loved
All these false selves fall away and I’m left with only one
As your light fills up my life that is when I become…
Tag
…visible.
Verse 4
In your presence I can’t hide
About myself I cannot lie to seem more loveable
Your gaze, it burns off all my pride
Sees right through deep inside
To the detestable
Pre-chorus 2
You are unwinding all the lies
Revealing what’s inside
I’m reprehensible
Yet in your hands somehow I find
I can always lift my eyes
I am redeemable.
Chorus 2
And when I see you see me, I come undone
I become so fully real, I become so fully loved
All my false selves fall away and I’m left with only one
As your light fills up my life, that is when I become...
Visible…visible...visible…
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Verse 1
We miss out on the growing when we choose to not forgive
We poison the garden we’re tending with the choices that we live
And all the while we’re starving for a love that satisfies
But we cannot feel our hunger ‘cause we’re feeding off the lies.
Verse 2
We miss out on the knowing when we always hide our face
The loneliness consumes yet we keep our masks in place
And all the while we’re thirsting for a love that never leaves
But we cannot hear you knocking through the noise of all our grief.
Chorus 1
Let your light break through, let your light break through in me.
Let your light break through, let your light break through in me.
Verse 3
We miss out on the living when we stop our clocks in time
When we’re constantly rehearsing all our failures or designs
And all the while we’re desperate for a love that never dies
But we cannot see you waiting through our panic-stricken eyes.
Chorus 2
Let your light break through, let your light break through in me.
Let my life tell the truth, let my life tell the truth about all you’ve done for me.
Let your light break through, let your light break through in me.
Let your light break through, let your light break through in me.
all i have
artist: jean
year: TBD
© 2024 Jean Huth. All rights reserved
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Verse 1
I will sing into the darkness,
I will shout my song of praise.
You will push back all the darkness
While I joyful noise I raise.
Verse 2
You know I was never meant to
Hold this world in my shaking arms
Beneath the flood of trees and houses
There are bellies that might starve
Chorus 1
So I let go, I let go,
I fall back into Your loving arms,
There’s no way I can come to harm with You, I know, so I let go.
I let go, I let go,
Your kindness gently beckons me
To look beyond what I can see and know.
So I let go, I let go.
Verse 3
Deep inside I feel so helpless
Is there nothing I can do?
I hear You say, “if you will follow Me,
There is no one I can’t use.
Verse 4
If you really want to be
Jesus’ hands and feet,
Then answer when I’m calling...
In your home, in the world, across the street...”
Chorus 2
Let's just go, let's just go.
Before time began You ordained
Good works for us to do by faith, I know, I just know, so let's just go.
Let's go, let's just go
No act of service is too small
Our Father’s heart He loves them all I know, so let's just go
Come on, church, let's go.
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Verse 1
Since we’re surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses
Let’s lay aside every weight and the sin that so easily entangles us, and with endurance let’s run this race
Verse 2
Let’s fix our eyes on Jesus, author and perfecter of our faith
Who for the joy before Him endured the cross despising its shame and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God
Chorus
Consider Him, who endured such hostility
So you won’t grow weary, so your heart won’t faint
Oh Saints, stand firm, give no ground to your enemy
For our Father will reward you, if you will just stand firm
Verse 3
So far you've not given up your life in struggle against sin
And have you forgotten the exhortation that God gives, do not regard lightly the discipline of the Lord
Verse 4
For He disciplines those He loves and punishes
the one that He accepts as His child, as you endure, remember, God is treating you as His own child
Chorus
Consider Him, who endured such hostility
So you won’t grow weary, so your heart won’t faint
Oh Saints, stand firm, give no ground to your enemy
For our Father will reward you, if you will just stand firm
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He has shown you, O, man,
What is good and what the Lord requires of you.
He has shown you, O, man,
What is good and what the Lord requires of you.
But to do justly and to love mercy
And to walk humbly with your God.
But to do justly and to love mercy
And to walk humbly with your God.
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Verse 1
Over in Bethlehem, there’s a baby.
Vulnerable, tiny, and weak.
He is dependent on His mother.
She is singing Him to sleep...while the angels sing...
Chorus 1
Love has come!
To a tired and groaning world.
If your burden is heavy, His yoke is light,
Come bow your knee, come lose the best fight.
Love has come; love has come down!
Verse 2
Over in Egypt, there’s a toddler.
Playing in the sand, no worries in His head.
He was brought here by His earthly father,
He's watching Him the best that he can...while the angels sing...
Chorus 2
Love has come!
To a hateful and murderous world.
If your heart is angry, just turn to Him,
He can heal any evil, forgive any sin.
Love has come...
Bridge
Wonderful Counselor, Almighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace!
Lion of Judah, Lamb who was slain, Alpha and Omega, King of Kings!
Verse 3
Over on a hill, there’s a man who is dying.
He could choose to come down from that cross, but He won’t.
While mortal men mock the High King of Heaven,
He quietly gives Himself for us all...while the angels sing...
Chorus 3
Love has come!
To a world choosing death over life.
Come kneel at His feet, receive His free gift.
There is no other way, He dies and you live.
Love has come!
Chorus (Final)
Love has overcome!
On the third day, He’ll walk from that grave.
And anyone who’ll confess and believe,
He’ll shepherd forever, He’ll save, He'll keep.
Because Love has overcome, love has come down!
Love has come! Love has come down!
Love has come! Love has come down!
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Verse 1
If I can speak in the tongues of men or of angels
If I can prophesy and tell of what’s to be
If I understand all mysteries and knowledge
If my faith throws mountains into the sea
Chorus 1
If I don’t have love, I’m a clanging cymbal
If I don’t have love, all I am is noise
If I don’t have love
Verse 2
If I give away all of my possessions
If I surrender my body to the flames
If I serve and serve until my back is broken
If I help the poor in Jesus name
Chorus 2
If I don’t have love, my sacrifice is worthless
If I don’t have love, there is nothing that I gain
Bridge
Love is patient, love is kind, does not envy, does not boast, it is not proud
Love is not rude, does not serve self, is not angered easily, it keeps no score
Love does not rejoice in evil, but rejoices with the truth
Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never fails
Chorus 2
Help me to love my brothers and my sisters
Help me to love just the way You do
Help me to love all of my neighbors
Help me to love just the way You do, just the way you do
Help me to love, oh help me to love